This page contains honest mental health talk — content warnings applied.
“Just living the best I can with the madness I’ve been given”
“Embrace the madness, forge meaning from the fragments—create without apology.”
I’m Michael Reed—making the most of the beautiful chaos life hands me. I’m a free-thinking, deeply empathetic soul who thrives on creativity. Prozac keeps the overwhelming waves of depression at bay, and I create relentlessly: when I’m not building something meaningful, guilt creeps in and threatens to unravel my progress. So I stay in motion.
MD Bard Studios
This is what happens when you have a father with the same name as you. But I answer to Michael most of the time and the little part is a bit of a trauma scar if you will.
What trauma?
Wish I could tell you, but that’s not what I do.
One could say I hold the tears, the pain, the depression the overwhelming sadness of being the human equivalent of a forgotten stuffed animal.
Current age is somewhere between 15 and 42 though I tend to act like I’m still in my 30s until my body betrays me and starts hurting.
My job at the studio is editing, producer, some of the writing stuff and mostly trying to keep the other 4 ducks in a row.
I’m not they Lillith at best I’m a cheap knock off created by a child that didn’t know how to process their sexual trauma, at worst I’m actually a succubus that occasionally posses this body and tries to play house with other people. Or goes and cooks at restaurants. I still want to overthrow the patriarchy but only because I think I’d make some woman a great pet when they rise up and take back our society.
I mostly do the erotica, crochet, cool outfits, and try to be a good mother figure for the rest.
I hold the secrets, I make the AI videos, or at least I started it, yes I hold trauma, everyone has trauma, my mind just reacted to it like this, I admit I hold the anger, the rage, the hate and the petty for the grievances suffered upon me by the hands of the departed.
Dare I make a joke about being the clown with the tear away face?
I write some of the jokes, hold some deep trauma, and mostly just try to be the smile on everyone’s face, if you want to know more about that, go look at some of the art and you might figure something out.
I also do photography and poetry and elaborate outfits.
I used to think I was the soul of a vampire trapped inside of this body. I’m actually just left over religious trauma, escape fantasy and childhood dreams. I do art, ink, and pencil. Some of the deeper vocals, and any heavy lifting or planning. I consider myself the best pilot of the meat ship!
My Journey
A poly-creative through and through.
A Bit About the Brain
Officially diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder (managed with Prozac) and Borderline Personality Disorder (currently in remission).
Unofficially navigating AuDHD and DID—five distinct parts of me you might meet along the way. Neurodivergent, unapologetically.
My Creations
- Titans Reign: An original tabletop roleplaying game.
- Tales of Passion: A growing collection of short stories.
- Photography: Capturing the magic of places I’ve explored.
- Visual Art: Pencil & ink sketches, digital illustrations, and paintings.
- Fiber & Wood: Crochet pieces and functional carpentry projects.
- Music: Harmonica, mountain dulcimer, keyboard, and vocals—always practicing, always playing.
Embrace the madness with me